I am what I am

This is a soapbox, vent moment. I just heard the other day that the majority of what you read online/blogs are lies. Now I don't think that they are lies of deceit per say but more of an expressive way to show their lives. Having said that you will never read a lie here.

Sometimes I read a blog and the blog is full of sunshine, full of wonderful families, god fearing people and all is good. This makes me question my life. Why isn't my family that good, why don't we have that god fearing family time, why don't I serve wonderful, nutritious food everyday, why can't I lose weight and the list goes on. Here is the problem they aren't all happy go lucky either, it is just the happier moments they blog about and it gives a sense of unreality to things. Also people lie to themselves because they don't want to acknowledge that there are flaws in their lives it shows weakness. Gosh am I making any sense at all here?

I am weak, I am moody, sleepy, snappy, angry, and don't feel well. Sometimes I am happy, laughing, joking, joyous and spiritually enlightened and ready to meet the world head on and I never know what I am going to get when I wake up that day. I am overweight, anxious, have panic attacks, have a wonderful goofy family that makes me so mad I wonder why I put up with them. My life is as far from perfect as you can get but it is my life and I like it most of the time.

OK so I vented, I don't like fakeness, I don't think sugar coating your life for others is helpful in the least. I feel that honesty is the best policy.

To end, I had a bad day. I had two hours of a client that I could feel nothing for and that bothered me. I always find something worthwhile in a client, they could be the worst and some where deep down I pull out something good about that person. I could find none of that today. The client was a con, she was just more then what I expected and now it has made me question life. I can't explain the worst of the client because of confidentiality but I can say that I heard a really bad thing today and the client didn't care how it came across. My heart is breaking and my mind is racing whaere is the humanity in people? Sorry about my downer but today is what it is, life.