>> Sunday, June 7, 2009
Hi my name is Paula and I am a control freak. Yes, I said it a control freak.
I have to learn to let go of things. Going to school and taking these four courses is so much work. I knew it would be but it is very demanding. Now add to that that I worked over 32.5 hours last week doing assessments and follow up paper work. I had 6 assessments and I have six more scheduled this week with three exams and I am trying to finish one novel right now I started this morning for class plus text book reading and papers. Enter the control freak issue....
I can not do everything. I have to rely on my family. The pool is draining and will be cleaned and refilled by my family. I am freaking out they are going to do it wrong.
We have no "real" food in the house. I have got to get away from fast food and I need the family to cook and have some things ready for me to eat when I get home. Control problem number two...leaving hubby to go the store, not having coupons, not knowing what extra crap he will pick up. Like it really matters.
Money....control issue number three....I cant do all the banking as I normally do right now and there is no reason he cant....just freaks me out.
Control issue number four....the puppies...yes I love them and they adore me...they need food/water and puppy class....nothing cant or isn't being done...why am I worried about them?
Control freak number five....household cleaning needs done. My daughter already agreed to do some major house and yard cleaning as long as I make her a list....freaks me out what if they touch my garden?
Yes my name is Paula and I am a control freak...God help me because I need to lighten up or I am going to lose my mind. Why are we women so afraid to let loose? Why do we have to have so much control?